Tuesday, October 03, 2006

who was I kidding??

Did I really say "kinder" AND "gentler" in that last entry?? Sheesh, I should know myself better by now.

I haven't even ovulated yet, and already this month a) I've felt sick to my stomach when reading about celebrity pregnancies, b) I've cringed at pregnant women on public transportation (internally only, I'm not really that cruel) and c) I broke down in tears last night at the thought of psyching myself up for doing the deed. It hasn't been pretty.

The good news, though, is that G and I have talked more this month about plans and options than I think we ever have. We agreed last night that we're going to try to stay the course *just a little while longer* before I run in a panic back to the RE. And we're going to try to keep the pressure on each other to a minimum. For all the little gripes I may have registered about G in the past, he really has come quite a long way with regards to this journey we're on. He actually has learned a lot about my cycles, conception, and pregnancy than I ever expected.

So although my hormonal roller-coaster will likely continue to roll on, despite my better efforts to keep it stable, at least I've got someone rolling right alongside me. Nice to have in case it's a bumpy ride.

3 Comments:

Blogger Amy said...

Ah yes, crying before or after sex. The joys of TTC!

Glad to hear that G is being so supportive. :-)

10/03/2006 10:34 AM  
Blogger Lorem ipsum said...

I always feel like I've sold my husband a bill of goods. He didn't know I was defective when he signed on. Who would volunteer for three lost pregnancies in the first two years of marriage? Not me, no sir!

But yeah, it's stressful for them too. I keep thinking about that. Stressful in a different way. Lean on each other.

10/03/2006 7:43 PM  
Blogger SaraS-P said...

I swear there was a time when the thought of sex was not a reason to cry. Hmmm... that was definitely before TTC. Sigh...

It is good that you have someone to support you through the bumby ride.

10/05/2006 3:12 PM  

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