Drive-by update
Just a quick update to say I'm alive, and busier than I ever thought I'd be.
Our work deployment is 6/4, and we're all stressed out. I got a chest cold and my cough has lingered for about eight days now. I am dragging myself along, just trying to get through.
I've had a blog entry or two that I've thought about writing, but the day a few weeks back that I finally decided to log in and post, I saw Catherine's bad news. And whatever I had to say suddenly seemed unimportant. While I was at the store getting Mothers' Day cards for my mom and MIL that night, I looked at the sympathy cards. There was nothing appropriate AT ALL. So I sent something electronic. I didn't have the words to say anything that made any sense, and still don't, although I tried my best. I hope it was enough, but know it never will be.
So that's my current state. I'm so tired and stressed and confused that I barely have time to think straight, let alone put down what I'm thinking in words. I still think about having a baby and whether it will happen for me, but the energy I'd need to devote to thinking about it seriously just isn't there right now.
And maybe that's a good thing.
Our work deployment is 6/4, and we're all stressed out. I got a chest cold and my cough has lingered for about eight days now. I am dragging myself along, just trying to get through.
I've had a blog entry or two that I've thought about writing, but the day a few weeks back that I finally decided to log in and post, I saw Catherine's bad news. And whatever I had to say suddenly seemed unimportant. While I was at the store getting Mothers' Day cards for my mom and MIL that night, I looked at the sympathy cards. There was nothing appropriate AT ALL. So I sent something electronic. I didn't have the words to say anything that made any sense, and still don't, although I tried my best. I hope it was enough, but know it never will be.
So that's my current state. I'm so tired and stressed and confused that I barely have time to think straight, let alone put down what I'm thinking in words. I still think about having a baby and whether it will happen for me, but the energy I'd need to devote to thinking about it seriously just isn't there right now.
And maybe that's a good thing.
posted by Lisa P. at 3:08 PM
3 Comments:
I was just thinking of you today...glad to see you've checked in.
Thank you for checking in, was wondering how you were doing. Hang in there with the funky work schedule. ugh.
I read this last week but got side tracked by catherine's awful news. I'd never read her blog before. That really is a stupid amount of ill fortune to hit any one family.
I hope that once next week is over things will be a bit calmer for you.
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