Thanks...

...to everyone who left a comment, your thoughts really helped me through the day.

It wasn't as bad as I thought it would be. I had an appointment with the psychiatrist in the morning to talk about meds, and I cried when I got there since it's in a regular "medical office" and I had to get weighed, BP, etc. Made me think of where I'd rather be. But then I talked with this guy, he told me about some programs he knew about over at the women's hospital in town, and gave me a script for Zoloft.

I kept myself occupied the rest of the workday with "busy work"; since we just moved to a new office, that wasn't hard. The presentation I was supposed to be doing in the afternoon got rescheduled. All somehow made it tolerable.

After work, I decided to stop at a local store that sells helium balloons, and buy one to release in the park. When I asked how much to get a lilac one, the guy handed me one and said "free, at least right now. You came at the right time."

I went to the park and stopped at a small playground that was not being used at the time. I wrote a small note on the balloon and then sat on the playground equipment and thought good thoughts, as best I could. When I released the balloon, I took a picture with my camera phone. I think I might do a small memory book and that will be nice to have. I watched the balloon until it was no longer visible, and then drove home.

I may not have wished for this day to be this way, but overall, it was not a bad way to remember what happened.